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Today My Little Girl is One!!!

I look at her and wonder where did the time go? We played, we laughed, we cried, but did I really do all the things I wanted? Most likely not. But here begins another year to bring us promise and celebration.
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This year you have learned to nurse, hold a cup, drink from a bottle, eat solids, cookies, & lots and lots of Cheerios. You can play by yourself, play with others, chase kitties and dogs, step on stairs, fall down steps, roll over, rock back and forth, crawl, walk, and run. You know your bow goes in your hair and that you shouldn't have taken it out, your shoes and socks go on your feet & how to take them off. Your hands go over your ears or on the side of your head and rarely over your eyes to play peek-a-boo. You have weighed so little they were worried, so much that you topped the charts, and now have weighed the same for 6 months! You can push buttons, turn knobs and clap. You can say "all done" and "more" with your hands though you have no idea what they mean. You poke people's eyes including playmates in your class. During Sunday School you clutch a Jeremy Giraffe the whole time, doesn't matter if someone else wants it. When you're happy you do a little dance with your head, and you can dance with your feet! You put your head down on the floor for Daddy so he can flip you over, and you even did a forward roll all by yourself one time. We are so proud of you, can you tell?

I cannot wait to see what this year holds or what you will become. God has special plans for you my little one. You are feisty and pretty. Active and sweet. You cuddle and push. You love to point at things and say, "Yen Yey!" or whatever that was you said. Every stuffed animal or baby belongs to you of course. You especially love Cupcake (a giant bear Rebecca won on her birthday) and Hello Kitty which actually used to be mine. I have to admit you have good taste. That picture of you at 5 weeks could not be more perfect! Anything girlie or stuffed makes you say, "OHHHH!" with the biggest excalamation a voice could hold. And if given the option now you would cuddle that bunny just like that.

And did I mention that before you had croup your favorite thing was to scream at the top of your lungs? Which brings me to mention that you've already had your first hospital visit. It didn't go so well.

You know when you're in trouble or when I'm going to clean your hands. You hold out your hands easily for a slap or a cleaning. It's quite intelligent and willing of you in my opinion. You love to say Mommma, mommmma, mommma or Daddadadada. Meeemeemeee is another one of your favorites you are saying just now. You stick out your tongue when someone says, "blah!" because you've eaten something you shouldn't have. You pick up every little thing from the carpet, including the candy Nerds. You've actually eaten one, too!

You fuss if left alone or presented with new people. You are a people person and will even smile at everyone in the library (even if they don't notice you), yet you love all your peeps at home and feel most comfortable with them.

You laugh when tickled and fuss when it's not going just right. You keep me busy all day so that my room is a mess most of the time, dinner is half done, lunch is half done, and the laundry. But we all love you just the same! My heart is full, that's for sure. And I am thankful to have you in my life. You have taught me to love and to laugh and give up everything I thought I had already given up! All together my heart is struck with love for you!!!

Spoken Words

Why do I have to say stupid things? The only thing good about the movie "How Do You Know?" is that one line. I wish you could rewind and take all the words back. But for some reason at certain times when my brain is full of words it is hard or impossible or something to see how the words are gonna affect others. And then "blewpmsbkahis'aljs" I say whatever I was thinking. And then for HOURS later I think about what I just said. I even cringe inside thinking of how that person must be feeling even NOW. And then I realize I'm actually going to SEE them again and I have to decide if I'm going to mention it and apologize or let it go. If I sweep it under the rug it is no big deal to me except that I will always wonder if it really hurt them and they are secretly thinking about it. And then I wonder, "WHY DO I HAVE TO SAY SUCH STUPID THINGS?!"

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